2017.

2017 was undoubtedly the best year of my adult life.

This year was such a good year and I’m so proud of myself for doing things I did not know I could, being brave at unexpected times, and trusting in the process even when I doubted that things would not work out (by the way, they did!).

Honestly, while 2017 as a whole was amazing, this wave started August/September 2016. Out of nowhere, I snapped in August but in a positive way. I’d had a slew of bad luck all year and while I did not hit rock bottom I was pretty close. In August, though, I got up one morning and I was happy. Like, ludicrously happy. It’s crazy because I remember going to bed the night before feeling like a pile of useless compost. Yes, that bad. I couldn’t explain it and still can’t, but I woke up the next day filled with unfathomable joy and I went from feeling like shit to feeling like I could shit gold bricks. Since then, I’ve been riding an incredible wave.

I’ve sailed through potential disasters like it was nothing.

Handled a project on my own with zero project management skills.

I was looked in the face and told that I would absolutely not get what I wanted. I asked around and other people said it was highly unlikely I would get it. I’d spent a couple of months working on it, so I was really sad to hear this but I stayed hopeful and after waiting a few more months I got it!

I was scared I would lose my sister this year to a freak accident, but I didn’t. She had major surgery which sucked but I’m glad that she’s alive AND well.

My brother freaking got married to who I hope is the love of his life!

I moved to another country… What?! I’d only been dreaming about this for 2 years. Having your dreams become your reality is one of the best feelings ever.

I started school again. I was super nervous about this, but it’s been great and I’ve made some nice friends which is also new for me. As an introvert, making friends is so hard, but we move!

I got to work with a brilliant mind this year!! My boss was such an inspiring human to learn from and his work ethics are what I am applying in school right now! I’m so grateful for that experience and learning to push myself in a way I never had before.

I love the family I was born into. While we have our disagreements and they’ve never been able to understand why I am who I am, they are so supportive regardless of anything. I can’t even be mad at them. When I say I want to do something, they respond with “OK, what do you need?”. PS: I definitely have the best sister in the world!

My friends are forever so amazing. I’m an emotional being and I know that’s not for everyone, so I really lucked out with the friends I have. They are there for the highs and lows, especially the lows. They’re supportive humans who have saved me more than once from myself.

Gosh, the list is endless and now I am crying remembering what an absolute miracle 2017 has been. There is so much more to be grateful for that I cannot even remember. I sincerely hope that 2018 continues this trend of all-around blessings! I hope it is full of unlearning, relearning, positivity, progress, growth, funnnnn (because, duh!), contentment, and love. I hope the same for my loved ones and I hope for a better future for our world because humanity deserves a break from all the current madness. My one big 2018 request is that I get my preferred job. Working while in school is stressful, so I’d rather work somewhere worthwhile to me.

I don’t know what the future may bring, but I can only hope it’s full of greatness. All I’m sure of, though,  is that right now I feel so much better than I’ve ever felt. I feel more at peace with who I am and I look forward to getting to know who I will become.

Now I just need to start exercising!